After everyone else had gone home, Billy took the chance to question me. He sat next to me on the couch and put his hand on my knee.

“So, what’s this all about?” he asked.

“I don’t know,” I sighed.

“You’re one hell of a strange girl, you know that?”

“Yeah, I do.”

I lied down on his chest and he wrapped his arms around me. We stayed silent for a long minute. I yawned, slowly drifting into sleep….

****

Ughh, where am I? I looked around. It’s white everywhere. White, everywhere. This can only mean one thing, I’M DEAD! How the hell did I end up dead?! The last thing I could remember was… lemme see. I cracked my head to remember the last thing I saw. Billy. I saw Billy. Suddenly, there was Billy! He’s coming towards me.

“I’m sorry.”

I stared up into his deep brown eyes.

“Sorry for what?” I asked, anxious. He ignored me and walked away. I quickly reached out my hand to grab hold of him. I missed and I soon found him disappearing. Where is he going?! He’s not supposed to leave me!

“BILLY!!!!!”

My heart jumped and I sat up straight. I scanned my eyes around the room. No one. Billy must be off at work. Damnn, what a dream that was. What was Billy sorry for? Huh.

I stood up and walked to the bathroom. I took out a new blue top I bought yesterday and a black short. I changed into it and went to the kitchen. I’m not that hungry. Maybe I should go see Billy.

I went out the door and locked it. Okay, this time, I’m keeping the key with me. Nuh uh, no bitch is keeping this key.

I met Billy at the workshop a few minutes later. He was too busy to entertain me so I decided to wander around the workshop. I fiddled with everything I saw! Omg! I’m soo frigging bored!

Oh shit! I had turned around and saw Eric and some chick walking past. I ran across the workshop and took Billy by his hands and kissed him. I kissed him hard on his mouth. Just as I opened my eyes, I caught Eric looking. Oh yeah! I did it.

I pushed Billy away as soon as Eric was out of sight.

“Thanks,” I said.

“What?”

“Sorry, Eric was there.”

“Uh huh. I still don’t see your point.”

“He was with someone else.”

“I thought you were over him.”

“Who ever said I wasn’t?”

“So, so what if he’s with someone else?”

“I just like to make him jealous. See what he’s been missing out all this while,” I said, smiling proudly.

“Casey, you broke up with him.”

“Well, if he did a better job at being a boyfriend I wouldn’t have broken up with him.” I threw my hands in the air. “Duh!”

“Whatever. Now can you please leave me alone?”

“Okay, okay. I’ll leave you alone. Jeez. Oh but wait.. are you hiding something from me, Billy?”

“What kind of a question is that?”

“Just answer me.”

“Why would I ever hide something from you?”

“Oh, I don’t know. Maybe because it’s a secret? God, Billy. You’re getting dumber by the second.”

“Shut up.”

“What are you sorry for, Billy?”

“I’m not sorry for anything! What are talking about?”

“I have to go.”

“Where are you going?”

“Home. I need to pick up my clothes. I’m moving in, remember?”

“What about your parents?”

“They’re never home on Sundays,” I replied, walking away.

So, Billy is not hiding anything from me. Billy is not sorry for anything. It was after all just a dream. But it felt so real. Almost as if he really was sorry. Okay, who cares?

I ran back home. I’d better hurry up before mum and dad comes back.

I reached the doorstep. I flipped the carpet and there it was, the spare key in case of emergencies. I unlocked the door.

“Where the fuck have you been?”

Hanging out at Billy's place was fucking memorable. Period.

Prank calls. Facebook. Hot dudes ;)

*

Trace gave me a ride home to get some sleep after an exhausting day out. My legs were aching and my hair was in a mess but i couldn't care much. I almost fell asleep in the car but thank God. I reached home after, like what, 10 minutes or less?

Shit, it was way past my curfew.

I unlocked the gate and walked towards the front door. "Should i go in?" i thought to myself. It was dark outside and creepy. Where else could i go anyway?

But.. What if mum's waiting for me in the living room? What if Lance was too. He can tell whenever i'm lying. Ugh. What explaination could i give? Mum wouldn't trust me anyway if i said.. "Well, Casey broke her right arm and i had to send her to the hospital in the middle of the night."

.. It's worth the try.

I took a breath and opened the door bravely.

Oh, no one was there.

I was glad to find everyone else, fast asleep. I took my handphone out to check what time was it. 4:19 in the morning. Fuck, this is so not good for my skin.

As i walked into my room, i could hear snores coming from Lance's room. Pig.

Suddenly, my handphone rang.

It was someone's number. I didn't know who was it.

I answered the call immediately after the third ring.

"Hello?"

"Hello."

"Hello."

"Hellloo."

"Yes hello, who's this?" i asked, getting frustrated already.

"Jesus, finally. You picked up. Is this Mimi?"

"Yeah. And this is?"

"Yumi."

The girl from History class?

Yeah, the one whom i thought, stole my precious bag.

"Erm, how did you get.." Before i could finish my sentence, she interrupted me.

"I got it from Max."

"Oh."

"Mimi.. Can i talk to you? Am i like disturbing you.. or.."

"Yeah, sure. What's up?" i said, while changing into my pyjamas.

There was a short silence. At that moment, i wanted to hang up already.

"Kelvin's.. missing."

"What." Kelvin, the guy who hangs out with Max?!

"Have you seen him?"

"No no. no wait. What?"

"Kelvin, is missing." she said, slowly.

"Oh Erm. No.. In fact, i don't remember seeing him after school."

"God where can he be.." I could hear her sobbing on the other line.

"Did you try looking for him?"

"Yeah, but he's no where to be found."

"Where does he live?"

"With me."

"OH. Then what.. huh how?"

"We had an argument.. He stormed out of the house. Just like that."

"Oh. Damn, wrong move Yumi. He's a sensitive guy, you know."

"I know i know.. What should i do? I don't want to lose him."

"You know what. We'll find him first thing in the morning tomorrow."

.... What could happen anyway?

-

I drove off to meet Yumi the next morning without having any breakfast. There wasn't anymore time to lose. We had to find Kelvin.

But apparently. We failed to.

"Mimi, i found these yesterday."

She showed me a couple of notes and these were written on it.

I'm not afraid of getting old. I'm afraid of losing.. you.

It's hard to stay away from you.

I love you. I really do. Believe me for once.

I want to believe in it all again. In art, fate, and love and I want to believe that I’ve made the right choice and that I’m on the right path and there's still time to fix the mistakes that I’ve made. And I guess I want hope.

God, that's so sweet. Yumi's lucky to have him as her boyfriend.

"Isn't he the sweetest guy?" she sighed.

"He sure is...."

We went on, searching for him. Still, there wasn't any sign of him. We went to every places that we could think of but no. He wasn't there. We tried asking Max too, but he told us that he hasn't seen him for a while. We asked all his friends but no one saw him. He couldn't have go out of country as his passport was still with Yumi. Where, oh where could he be?

By noon, we got hungry and so we've decided to have a light lunch at a restaurant nearby.

On our way there, suddenly, my eye caught a damn familiar looking figure. Isn't that.. Kelvin?

After spending a couple of hours at Billy's apartment , Trace fetched Mimi and i home . Well , after fetching Mimi home , i was really quiet . I dont know if Martin came up to my mind after that or whatever . But i was totally lost on my words and my mind thinking of Martin . He should have never cheated on me . SHOULD NEVER HAVE . Ugh ! Sophie , why are you still thinking of him ? Cut this out .

" Hey , Sophie ? Are you okay ? " asked Trace .

" Hmm ... yeah . " i replied .

" No , you aren't . You forgotten that i can read girl's mind especially you , Sophie ? "

" Ah , you know me too well , don't you ? You know , somehow , i wonder .. how can you know me so well when i am only friends with you for like a week . "

" This is a ... secret , Sophie . I have my skills , and thats for you to find out . "

" Right right , Trace . " I gave him the sarcastic look and giggled .

You know , its really a miracle that .. a guy like Trace could have known so much bout me . Sometimes , i really wish that Trace was my boyfriend , but i doubt it will ever come true . His so sweet and caring . Ah , i wonder why Martin can never be like Trace .

*your voice was the soundtrack of my summer , do you know that you're unlike any other ? "

" Excuse me . My phone is ringing " i said .

" Sure sure . "

I looked at the number on my phone . I ignored the call , as i don't feel like speaking to that person who called .

" Not answering that ? " Trace asked .

" Nope . Don't feel like it . "

" Why not ? Is it Martin ? "

" Uh uh . Yeah , is him . Lets not talk bout him . "

" Okay . If you say so . Oh , i got a question ? Was that thunder by boys like girls ? "

" YEAH YEAH . i love them ! " I got so excited .

" Me too . I love their album . "

" They are love ! Dont you just agree ? "

" Yeah . Hey Sophie , Can you accompany me to somewhere ? "

" Sure sure . Where ? "

" You will know when you reach there . "

" Okaaaaayy .. "

" Oh and err , Sophie .. Do you still like Martin ? "

" I'm not sure . Really , Trace . I planned to just .. stay a distance from him for a moment "

" Have you told him yet ? " He sounded like he was so curious about it .

" Not yet . "

" Okay . "

I rested my mind while Trace was driving me to somewhere which i've no idea where . I texted Martin saying that " Hey Martin , i think .. is best for us that we keep a distance for a short while . And i'm really sorry for not being so considerate , i hope that you'll forgive me . "

" Trace , i texted Martin saying that i want to keep a distance with him . "

" So .. did he reply ? "

" I will off my phone right now to avoid looking at his reply . "

" Okay . So here we are . We've reached but , we need to wait till morning . You dont mind sleeping in the car with me right ? "

" Uhuh . Right . I'm fine with it somehow . Mum wont be back so soon . So i guess its alright . "

Yes , he brought me to a beach at night , waiting for the sunrise the next morning . I didnt bother , i just slept because i was so tired already .

" Sophie , sophie ! Wake up . Look at the sunrise . "

" Hah hah ? Oh oh . " I quickly woke up from the seat , got off the car , and took the view of the sunrise .

It was just on time for the sun to rise . It was so beautiful . It looks like a paradise and it is a romantic place for couples .

" Sophie , would you be my girlfriend ? " Trace kneels down , and held out a ring on his hand .