"Oh god," i groaned, in a good way. I tried to get up but i was too sore from all that "exploring". I was panting as thought i had just run 20 miles! He put on his shirt and pants back on. I took my tank and jeans, putting them on too as i said, "That was awesome." He flashed me a smile that was too adorable to be true. "Thanks." Once he was done, he walked out of the toilet. Well what did i expect? It was just a freaking hook up. It's not like we were meant to be. Talk about fantasy. I sat there in the toilet, waiting for myself to regain my breath. When i finally did, after 10 long minutes, i got up. I wobbled and felt shaky. Damn, i guess it was the champagne. Maybe i should sit for a while. Duh, i wouldn't want anyone to see me like this! Hmm, where is Mimi anyway? I feel bad for leaving her. But... it was so worth it! Omg, i gotta stop thinking about the sex! I wonder how's Billy. I had to beg him to come here. I haven't seen him around. I don't think he's coming. I leaned my head again the wall, lost in thoughts.


First rule in a party - Never, ever, talk to anyone who's drunk ; unconscious ; barely awake ; ugly. Why? Ugh, because they'll end up asking you for sex and start touching you without you approving them to do so. Disgusting freaks. Do remind me again, why did men ever exist in this world?

Oh, speaking of men, there was this nice guy i've met. No, he's not like them. He's totally different. It was the guy who tried talking to me ever since Renee left. He is friendly and gorgeous too. Blue eyes, neat blonde hair, way above average-looking. I remembered his name clearly, it's Mike. He's from the big city, New York and he doesn't live with his family. Instead he rents an apartment near his school and stays with his friends. He accompanied me 'til he had to go back already and i'm relieved that i didn't actually do anything stupid when i was talking to him. You know how clumsy i can get when i'm around the guys. There was once when i was at the mall with Aaron (he's a friend of mine) i got nervous and i didn't know what to talk about. My mind was totally blank and so i started a stupid random fucked up topic, "Ever wonder why did dinosaurs extinct?" And immediately, he started laughing at me and gave me a compliment, "Oh, Minnie why are you so funny?" Hell, come to think of it now, i think the reason was just me being shy that's all. If i could just gain more courage and confidence.. Mike oh mike, he seem really nice. I think i like him already.

Shit, speaking of Mike, why didn't i ask for his phone number? Ughh! i don't think i'll be able to meet up with him anymore! What a waste.

I did try communicating with other people.. well, sort of. I did try talking to the guy with the geeky spectacles at the living room. He seem lonely, like me but he was way worse. He was sitting down on the couch, reading Biology. Fuck, can anyone get more lifeless than this guy? After talking to him for only 5 minutes which felt like forever to me, i tried to make an escape from this horrible conversation. How did i do it? Simple, i told him i had to look after Denise's dead cat and he fell for it. I wandered around, without knowing what to do. And again, i was lost. I felt really horrible. There were some couples who were starting to throw cold glances at me already but i tried my best to ignore them. "I think i'm going to break down anytime now.." a voice whispered in my head. "Would you like some champagne?" i startled and turned to see an average-looking guy, offering me a glass. I nodded my head, ah, maybe this would make feel better. "Yes, please." i replied stiffly. He hands me a glass and grinned at me. Ew, he should stop doing that to other girls. "Nice outfit." he adds appreciatively. Okay, he is definitely one of those morons who would ask me for sex after 5 minutes of talking. I managed to make another lucky escape.

I was feeling rather sick and dizzy after a few glasses of champagne already so i stopped drinking and headed for the toilet. If i can find one, that is. How am i suppose to drive home tonight? And come to think of it, i was suppose to give Casey a lift home too. God, i hope this headache won't last that long. My head was feeling heavy and everything was in a blur. I could see two figures instead of one and i could hardly regain my balance. Without me realizing, i then bump into this girl. I apologized and looked up to see her pale face. She had really nice hair and that top did match her jeans. God, she looked so loving with her boyfriend. And hey, is that a charm bracelet i see that looks exactly like mine?

I could hardly walk properly and so i had to held on to.. things.. people.. Damn it, why don't i see any toilet around here? Maybe, i should ask someone. Someone like.. that girl over there leaning against the wall. with someone. or.. alone? Argh, i couldn't care less anymore. I needed to use the toilet BADLY. "Excuse me, do you know where's the washroom?" i asked politely. the girl tilted her head toward my direction and yelled at me, "Don't you know i'm in the middle of something with my girlfriend? Find yourself, bitch." I stared at her disbelief. Ugh, rude much?! My bladder was about to explode anytime now! "The toilet's right in front of you, dear." said a random guy. "Thanks." i replied and smiled. I successfully made my way through the big crowd of people into the washroom and just my luck, it was locked! WHAT THE FUCK!? how can it be locked! It can't possibly be locked! NO, it can't! Okay, Mimi, don't panic, don't panic. there must be a way in. If i can just..

Suddenly, someone inside the toilet unlocked the door. I sighed with a relief. "Mimi? Is that you?" Someone was talking to me. That voice.. That voice i've been hearing for more than 10 hours everyday. That damn familiar voice. Could that be.. Is that.. is that Casey Daniels? I opened the door even wider to see who it was and.. Oh god, it was her. I shrieked and to my surprise, she was in a mess. Her hair was all over the place and there were some blood stains on the floor. I open my mouth to say something but she silences me with her finger. "Get me home." Yeah, i better get her home already as it was half pass 3 in the morning. Wow, time flies when you're enjoying yourself. I helped her to get up and her whole body was shaking terribly. I wonder if it's really bad this time. I took my car keys out from my Chanel bag and went to get my car across the road. I helped her to get into the car, and put the seat belt on for her. I started the engine and turned the radio on to my favorite channel. Thank God, the headache was already gone. And now i can drive my car without having double figures in front of me! It only took 15 minutes for me to Casey's house and when i stopped my car right in front of her house gate, she gently stepped out of my car. She couldn't stand still but she did manage to take out her house keys. "Thanks." she said pleasantly. "Give me a call if you need any help. And, Casey?" "Yeah.." "Tell me all about the sex tomorrow at school. I know you want to." she nodded and slammed the door behind her. And then, i reached home in less than 5 minutes and surprisingly Lance wasn't at home yet. God, where can he be? I took my shoes off and headed for the kitchen. My tummy was growling ever since i was at Denise's house! "God.. this is good." "I smell egg sandwich." a voice came from the front door. It was Lance. "Where have you been? It's getting late, you know." he asked curiously. "There was a party at my friend's house." i replied automatically. "I see you didn't quite enjoy yourself eh?" Omg, I love my brother. He understands me the best. "Not much. I'm getting tired. In a few hours time, i'll be going to school already. Good night." i yawned and walked up to my room without waiting for a reply. I changed into my pyjamas and set my alarm clock. Without any longer, i dozed off to bed.

"Hey baby , what took you so long ?" said Martin desperately . "Oh well , some make ups , my hair , and more make ups .. was it really that long ?"I looked away while saying that . Without waiting less than a second , he kissed me on the lips like nobody is watching . I pushed him away , and tried to grab his hand before it gets any further . "Baby , do you know we’re in public ?" I said . "Whats the big deal , who doesn’t know we’re together ?" He laughed . "DON’T YOU KNOW IM SHY ?" I sort of whispered it right in to his ears , hoping that noone could hear it . "OKAY OKAY , Baby , Calm down ! Well , im going to show you something , and you will love me for you entire life !" he smiled while I rolled my eyes as I doubt what he said . He quickly hold my hand and pulled me along with him while walking up .

"Baby , close your eyes .." He covered my eyes with his huge hands . "NO PEEKY (: !" Then I could hear a whining sound , I guess it was Denise’s room door which frightened me 10 years ago during halloween . "5 , 4 , 3 , 2 , 1 . Open your eyes ." When I opened my eyes , I saw a chair right infront of me with a bouquet of pink roses . MY FAVOURITE , Bridal Pink . I ran to the chair and smelled the roses . Yes , it was from Plantae . I was so touched that I could cry . "Do you like it baby ? you better , as it costs my whole allowance for this month.." He moaned . " Awww , baby ! thank youu ! I LOVE IT." I gave him a kiss on the cheek . "I’m sorry I didn’t get you anything …"I was so afraid that he might get a little upset or pissed . "Baby , you gave me the most wonderful thing 1 year and 1 month before , It was you . you gave me your love , your body , your soul . and its way enough . I hope that we will last forever as I hope to have you for my whole eternal life" He wiped my tears as it was dripping down my cheek . He has never been this understanding since the day we were together . I was plain touched and at that instant movement , I loved him more . He switched on the cd player and inserted this CD by tchaikovsky . To think that he knew i loved this song. wait, oh my god, what was i thinking . of course he should have known, we have been together for a year and a month, if he didn't , i would have kicked his ass .

He came back to me , and grab my waist , putting his hand around it and held me tightly . I leaned on his chest , and hummed as the song rhythm goes . We started to dance slowly . He made me feel as though I was the luckiest girl on earth , or maybe a small girl who needs love . He kissed my cheek , then to my lips and next to my neck . he went up somemore , and accidentally bit my lips . "Owww , oh my god it hurts ." I shouted . "Im so sorry !!" He kissed it gently . I can feel his soft red lips against my lips . Then he started kissing me again , this time , from my forehead , right down to my neck . Then he slowly pushed me and made me lie down on the bed .

I just closed my eyes , as I didn’t know what to do , I could feel his love and his passion this time . It felt so different from the usuals kisses he gives . Was he going to ask me for sex ? Am I going to lose my virginity to him , a guy who has been with me for a year and a month , which I wasn’t even sure if he’s the right one for me ? I remembered that he said we aren’t going to have sex until we’re together for 2 and a half years or more . Well , maybe he changed his mind , wait , which guy wouldn't change his mind for SEX ? That question just cant stop repeating it in my mind , my heart was beating quite fast . SUDDENLY , he unbuttoned his vest and stripped his shirt . I saw his abs and packs . it was so irresistable , he just continued kissing me . Then he took out my halter top , I didn’t defend this time . I’ve no idea what I had on mind . Was I ready for sex ? was I ready to give my virginity to him ? I was so confused , and my heart pounded faster . He started kissing my chest to my tummy , I guess he could felt that I was shaking . "Baby , are you afraid or something ? " he sounded like I could tell him that I don’t want to continue and leave this room . but of course I didn’t want to disappoint him after what he did for me tonight . "Err.. no ? why ?" I was hoping that he wouldn’t tell me that I was shaking . tell me NO , please , NO . " you’re shaking baby , or are you cold ?" DAMN IT . he realized . should I just give excuses or ask him to continue ? "I am ? Oh right . Nah , nothing’s wrong . you can continue if you want ." He smiled . His smile is always the best , I don’t know why . He put on his shirt and passed me my halter . I didn’t know what he was doing , is this it ? or what ? "Why aren’t you putting on your clothes ? are u trying to catch a cold ?" I was shocked . I didn’t get him . "Huh ? …" I was hoping that he could tell me what he is trying to do . "Love , are you thinking that i'm trying to have sex with you ?" I gave him the look , the strange look . "Isn't that what you are trying to do , huh ?" I felt so dumb , yes I know , i'm unexperienced . "Don’t be silly , Sophie . remember my promise , we’ll never have sex until we’re eighteen . you forgotten eh ? or are you trying to act innocent so that you could lose your virginity to me ?" He laughed , then put on my halter top for me .

Damn it , is he thinking the other way round , I thought . Is he trying to say that i am asking him for sex instead ? Ugh , I hate it when he does like that . He always make me feel lost , that’s why sometimes I think that I cant understand him . "NO , I didn’t mean it or even thought of it ! of cause I remembered our promise , and no I wasn’t trying to act innocent" I protested . "Yeah sure , anything you say sophie dear" He smiled and winked .

"Let's go , before Tracy nags u again . I don’t want to hear your complains" I pouted . "Wait , let me go comb my hair: As I wanted to leave the bed , he pulled me back . he patted my head and brush through my hair with his fingers . There , you’re done , you don’t have to waste your energy . Then he grab my hand and pulled me . We walked out of the room and back to the loud music situation . We were looking for Denise to say goodbye but we couldnt find her . I told him I was bored and i'm tired of walking around looking for her . Martin told me some lame jokes and tickled me . it felt so long since we laughed and played together like that . Suddenly , I bumped into this girl , she looked lost and lonely . I wonder whether she went in the wrong house . I apologized , she didn’t quite react much and walked away . She looked like she was trying to find someone to accompany her . Then we found Denise , she was hooked up with this average looking guy , We went over there and I gave her signals that we’re leaving already . She pushed that guy away as though he wasn’t important to her . "Well that was quick , how was the surprise Sophie ? Surprising enough ?" She was hoping that I could tell her it was great ,I mean , of course it was . "Yeah , it was , thanks a lot Denise , thanks for everything bout tonight and of cause the plan , and the room , I owe you one !" I gave her a friendly kiss on the cheek and said our goodbyes and walked to the door . I didn’t realize it was already 2 in the morning . Martin was right , we should hurry home before Tracy nags . My dead line was 2.30 . I had 30 more minutes to go report to Tracy . well , base on Martin’s driving , I guess its quite possible . He drove me home and gave me a goodbye kiss . I left the car , went into the house . AH , Home sweet home , where is all peaceful and calm .

"Im proud of you , you came home before time , well better go change and have a good rest , tomorrow’s school" Tracy said that while coming out from the kitchen . She gave me a kiss on the forehead then walked back in . I went upstairs feeling so lazy but i had no choice but to get ready for bed . I bathed , brushed my teeth , put on my pyjamas . Martin was suppose to call , I guess he hasn’t reach home yet . so i continued reading French Kiss . Suddenly Martin called when i stopped at the most exciting part . He always call at the wrong timing . We had a fifteen minutes talk and some kisses over the phone . Then I had my sleep . thanks to Martin’s kisses I could sleep tonight without staring right up at the ceiling . I had a dream that night , a dream which I will never forget in my entire life . A dream that means so much to Martin and I .