As soon as Billy realized what was happening, he quickly pulled away. I held my hand on his face, not wanting to take it away. I didn’t want this to end. But it already did. I leaned closer to him, intending to kiss him again. I wanted more.

“Casey…”

He took my hand from his face and sat back. I decided that this was not gonna start again. I sat back too, taking my can of beer and gulping down the rest of what was left.

We sat in silence. Nobody wanted to make the first move. 5 minutes passed and I couldn’t take it anymore. I broke the silence.

“So… what the hell was that?”

Billy sat still. I waited for him to reply, but nothing came out of his mouth. I looked at the clock on the wall. It’s 5.30 pm. I didn’t want to go home just yet so I waited patiently.

Oookay, this is killing me! Billy has to have something to say. He kissed me for god’s sake! This is sooo awkward.

“I –”

I turned to look at Billy. Okay, he’s finally saying something.

“What?” I asked.

“I don’t know.”

“You kissed me.”

“I know. But –”

“But what?”

“I don’t know, Casey. I don’t know.” He shook his head. He leaned forward and rested his head in his hands.

“Okay,” I sighed. I don’t know what else to say! Maybe I should change the subject and make this a little less weird. “Billy?”

He lifted his head and met my gaze.

“Can I ask you a favor?”

“Yeah.”

“Can I stay here tonight?” I didn’t want to go home, and I’d much rather stay here. What’s the point of going home anyway? Home sucks. All there is, is fighting and screaming and yelling. I’m sick of it. Besides, he asked me to live here. So one night won’t do any harm right?

“I don’t have a bed.”

“That’s okay. I can sleep on the floor.”

“No, no. Err, okay. You sleep on this couch. I’ll sleep on the floor.”

“No way! This is your place. I’m sleeping on the floor.”

“Casey, please.”

“Fine, we’ll work something out somehow cause I’m not letting you sleep on the floor.”

Billy nodded.

“Well, okay. Do you mind borrowing me a shirt or something to sleep in?” I asked.

“No.”

He got up and went to the closet. I looked into the refrigerator for something to eat. At least the awkwardness in gone.

Soon enough, he came back with a shirt. I closed the refrigerator door.

”Thanks.” I took it from him and went to the toilet to change.

I took off my top and jeans and changed into the shirt. It was long enough to cover me up to my knees. Well, a little higher than my knees. Billy’s tall so yeah. Huh, come to think of it, Billy seems to be working out. When we kissed, I traced my other hand along his body and wow!

I left my clothes at the sink and went out of the toilet.

“Fits perfectly,” Billy said, as soon as he saw me.

“Yeah,” I laughed.

“So I ordered Chinese take out while you were changing. Cool?”

“Uh huh.”

“Great.”

I walked to the couch and sat down. Billy did the same. He turned on the TV and we sat quietly watching ‘Friends’. We laughed occasionally at the funny parts.

Once ‘Friends’ was over, we continued watching a movie. I didn’t have a clue what the movie was about and I think Billy didn’t know too. But we kept it on because we didn’t want the awkwardness to be back.

Half way through the movie, my eyelids fell. I quickly opened them.

“Billy?”

“Huh?”

“Can you put your arms around me?” I asked.

“Sure.”

He pulled me in closer to him and put his arms around me. I nestled in. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. Before I even got the time to thank him, I fell asleep.

*****

It’s a Saturday morning. I woke up to the sound of horns blaring outside. What the fuck?! How noisy people are these days. I looked at the clock. It read 8.30 a.m. You’re kidding me! 8.30 and horns are already blaring. How rude.

I pushed the blanket away and sat up. I looked around the room. Huh, no signs of Billy. My stomach grumbled and I realized I didn’t eat dinner last night. So I got up and went to the kitchen. There was a note on the counter.

Casey,

I didn’t want to wake you so I left to work early today. Your Chinese take out is in the refrigerator. If you’re ready to go home, just leave the key with Mrs. Fort next door. I’ll be at work the whole day if you need me.

Thanks.

Okay. I opened the refrigerator and there it was. My dinner. I took it out and put it in the microwave. While waiting for it to reheat, I turned on the TV to see what movies there is to watch.

Nope, nothing nice. I decided to look in the cupboard for DVDs. I opened the door and checked it out. I flipped through the DVDs.

OH MY GOD! Hold on… is that …. PORN ?! Billy watches porn?! I burst out laughing. Okay, yes, I know. This is normal. But Billy?? That is just soo weird! Okay, maybe not. But it is, to me. I took it out and put it on the table. I decided to taunt him about it later.

Ding! I went to the kitchen and took out the food. I brought it over to the couch and turned on the TV. This is soooo boring. I began eating.

After I was done, I packed all the leftover food and threw it into the dustbin. What should I do now? I looked around. Hmm… I don’t want to go home. Hmm… Maybe I should visit Billy at work. I don’t think he’d mind.

I grabbed my clothes I left at the sink last night and changed into them. I didn’t bother about showering. Wait, I took a sniff of myself. Not too bad. I rushed to get my bag on the floor and went out. I took the key along with me.

Quickly, I knocked on his next door neighbor, Mrs. Fort.

“Who is it?” I heard footsteps.

An old lady, I’m guessing Mrs. Fort opened the door.

“Mrs. Fort?” I asked.

“Yes, dear. How may I help you?” She seems friendly. I smiled at her.

“Could you hold on to Billy’s key while I’m out?”

“Sure, honey. Are you Billy’s girlfriend?” she said, taking the key in my hands.

“Oh, no no. You’ve got it wrong. I’m just a friend.”

“You don’t have to lie to me, dear. Billy never invites anyone else to his room except himself.”

Okay, I take it back. She ain’t friendly at all. More like a busybody.

“No, Mrs. Fort. You see, I’m his best friend.”

“Okay, okay. I get it. You little kids want to keep it personal.”

“God damit! We’re not together!” I screamed.

Silence.

Mrs. Fort stared at me. Well, I got fed up. Can’t she just accept the fact that we’re just friends? What does our life have anything to do with her anyway?! Gosh.

Mrs. Fort turned around and slammed the door in my face.

“Bitch,” I muttered. What an old hag.

I stomped down the stairs and walked to the car workshop nearby. Gary’s Workshop. I arrived in 2 minutes. Oh, there’s Billy. He was standing at the counter.

“Billy!” He turned to look at me.

“What are you doing here?” he asked, surprised.

“I got bored.”

“Figures.”

“So, Billy, I hear something’s new.”

“What are you talking about?” I moved closer to him.

“You watch porn?” I whispered.

“Casey! What the hell were you doing in my cupboard?”

“Chill. I was looking for some nice movies to watch and I found porn. Looks like someone found some entertainment.” I laughed, elbowing him in the gut. I missed as he quickly pushed my hand away.

“Shut up. I have work to do. Go home.”

“Geez, can’t take a joke?”

“I really have work to do.” He walked over to a car that just arrived and examined it. I followed him.

“Well, I don’t want to go home.” Billy ignored me and continued examining the engines.

“Fine. I’ll just go back to the apartment.” I suggested. I walked away.

“You know, Casey?” he called.

“What?”

“Why don’t you just move in with me?”

“Yeah, no. No way. We’re 16. We can’t live a life together.”

“Why not?”

“Money for one thing.”

“Billy!!” We turned around to see Billy’s boss, Henry, shouting his name.

“Shut the chattering and get back to work!” he said.

“I gotta go. Why don’t you just wait for me back at the apartment?” Billy asked.

“It’s okay. Maybe I should go home after all,” I replied.

“I’ll give you ride.” He was about to put his tools down when I stopped him.

“You have work, remember? We don’t want cranky Henry to be on the look out.” Billy laughed.

I smiled at him and waved goodbye. I walked out of the workshop and went home. It was quite a distance back home, but I needed the exercise anyway. I haven’t been working out in ages.

20 minutes later, I reached home.

“Get the hell away from me!” That’s my mum. I looked through the window. Vases were being thrown. Chairs were being thrown. Plates were being thrown. Bits of glasses were shattered everywhere.

They’re fighting, again. I watched their every move. Dad was being abusive. Mum was defending herself. I spun around and closed my eyes.

Tears ran down my cheeks. Damnn. I ran back the way I came from. I’m going back. I’m going to Billy’s apartment. I never ever want to come home ever again!




I barely slept last night.

I rolled in bed a few times and stared blankly at the ceilings for hours!

Scratch that, it was only for a few minutes.

I tried to watch the TV, but there wasn't anything interesting on. It was some crappy old movies which i've already watched. I tried studying for my Literature test but it wouldn't get my problems out of my mind. Duh, I couldn't concentrate. I was being lifeless enough to continue, staring at non-living objects which were found in my room. Let's just say, i spent most of the time thinking about.. Well, stuffs.

Who would have thought my own brother could be so mean when he's drunk? He didn't mean any of those, right? I hope.. I was getting phone calls from Casey and Sophie but i ignored them. They wouldn't understand. I mean, i can tell them about everything. But not about my brother! I'm sure Casey will go "OMG, your fucking hot brother! tell me, is he working out lately?" Shit, i can get sick of her sometimes. Sophie? She can't help much. She's already under pressure, dealing with her parents. I wouldn't want to burden her. ARGH, you could tell how stressed out i was. I needed to talk to someone approraite, someone whom i'm comfortable with.

Eventually, i thought of the idea to go online in the middle of the night.. Just my luck, i was relieved to find Max under my online list.

Duhh, i started the conversation. He never starts.

minnie.xo : hey ;)
maxx : hold on.

Er, what?

minnie.xo : what can you do at 1:23 in the morning.
maxx : sorry, was on the phone with Emily. so what's up?
minni.xo : who's Emily.
maxx : you don't have to know.
minnie.xo : what why! i'm your best friend.
maxx : oh please. look who's the one who left me after knowing Ashton.
minnie.xo : hey i knew him first.
maxx : so? can't you talk to me too?
minnie.xo : i didn't have time.
maxx : oh yeah sure. so does it mean you have time now?
minnie.xo : why are you talking to me like this!
maxx : fuck i was waiting for you at the front gate last week but you went off with Ash.
minnie.xo : jealousy strikes eh lol.
maxx : what are you trying to say?
minnie.xo : what are YOU trying to say?
maxx : stop it. god.
minnie.xo : look i'm sorry kay? i'll make it up to you on monday.
maxx : i can't trust you.
minnie.xo : max, i'm really sorry.

*maxx signed out*

Oh, he'll be fine.

*maxx has just signed in*

maxx : GOT CHA :)
minnie.xo : wtfuck?
maxx : haha, you know i will never get mad at you.
minnie.xo : how horrible can you get. fyi, i didn't fall for it :)
maxx : DAMN! do you want me to sign out again?
minnie.xo : no! don't go.
maxx : so tell me, what's wrong with you.

I told him everything and he seem to understand me very well.

*

I woke up the next morning at 8:54am sharp due to my bloody alarm clock. It's the weekends already but i have no plans YET. My eyes were swollen plus my legs were aching terribly. It took me some time to get off my bed without feeling a slight pain at all. I had to move as slowly as possible - like snails. Oh trust me, it wasn't easy! I had to go right and left, right and left, right and left and held on things. I tried to recall what i've done last night which caused me to have a bodyache this morning.

Oh right, i did some stretching on the floor. I was hoping to get more flexible by doing splits, cartwheels and some other weird stunts. Guess i've hurt myself instead. I should have warmed up first! But Max told me not to. Oh why did i ever listen to that boy?

Before entering into my bathroom, i looked out the window to notice the sun shining, as brightly as ever. So i guess there was NO WAY, it's going to rain today. I obediently took a shower and it didn't took me a long time to do so. I didn't have the mood to choose an outfit for today so i simply grabbed a simple tee and shorts. I looked horrible. I've gained weight. My eyebags were puffy and huge. Everything wasn't in place. Ugly Minnie.

Ah, you can't deny that. Afterall, i'm not pretty.

I marched down the stairs and i was surprised to see Ashton, sitting on the couch. He was talking to someone on the phone. I looked around the house to find no one else was at home. It was just him and me. Weird. Where was everyone? Sigh, they must have woke up earlier to leave me alone in this stupid house again. It's like a tradition in my family. The youngest is always forgotten or avoided at times like this. Especially, during the weekends. 2 days off from school and i'm like stuck at home. Fear not! I'm going to get out of the house anyway.

After having my eggs and bacon for breakfast.

I walked towards Ashton to greet him with a simple good morning, softly. That way, i wouldn't interrupt him with whoever he's speaking to. Oh, i so want to know who's on the other line!

"Oh, Mimi!" Why does he look so suspicious to me?

"Er, hang on a sec." he whispered something to the fella on the phone and clicked the 'end call' button.

I wondered who could that be.

"Mmmmm..." i groaned while chewing on my food. "Want some?" i said while showing him my plate.

"No, i've just finished eating mine. And.." he pointed at my food. "About that..."

"Er? Yeah? " i paused. "Don't tell me! It's not safe to be eaten, is it?" i said, with my eyes wide opened.

"No! Silly, i made those for you." he grinned at me and god he was so cute!

"Thanks, this is good." i continued eating.

"Any plans for today?"

"Sadly no." Geez, why am i even standing. I took a seat on the couch next to him and boy, he smelled so good.

"How about you?" i asked.

"Yeah, come on, i'll bring you out!" he beamed enthuastically.

"But i don't know your friends."

"Oh, i'll introduce you to them then. By the way...." he wrinkled his eyebrows. "You look..... great."

"Really?"

He snorted out a laughter.

"Oh, wow, i'm flattered. GEE, thanks." i said sarcastically.

"Go up and change. You know this outfit is.. unacceptable." he commented, with the it's-a-joke-don't-get-offended look on.

"After.. breakfast."

I went to my room and get changed for this little outing with Ashton's friends. My fringe was getting longer which means i'll have to get it cut by this week already. I stared at my reflection in the mirror, pulling a face. It's annoying to have a long fringe. Whatever. I grabbed my Chanel bag, a bright pink, tight top and a mini skirt to match off with that. I hoped he wouldn't comment on what i was going to wear again! Yeah, he didn't.

Ashton drove me to Maria's, to have.. ergh, coffee. On our way there, i was frigging bored. He didn't speak so neither did i. I gazed out the window to see little young kids, chasing one another (playing tag) along the roadside, a group of senior citizens taking a stroll at the park, a middle-aged guy feeding the ducks with small pieces of bread. I was feeling rather calm and relaxed at that time. Looking at couples, holding hands.. Fuck, i'm jealous.

"Lucky i'm in love with my best friend......" Jason Marz and Colbie Calliat were singing on the radio !

"I love this song-"
"Omg i love this song!"

I gasped.

Did we just speak at the same time, again?!

A stifled giggle was heard from him and all i could do was to show my 'omg' face.

"Copy me huh. I said it first." i joked while showing my tongue out.

"We think alike, that's all." he winked at me and continued driving.

When we were about to reach at our destination, i've finally figured out. Max was right. Why do i have to worry so much about my brother? He's mature enough to handle his problems himself. I can't always protect him from being hurt every single time. He gets heartbroken, what about me? I do too.. So what if he scolds me? Duh, omg. Why didn't i think of this? I shouldn't fucking care about him. It's his bloody problem. I don't even want to care anymore! I'm going to fucking spend my weekends with Ashton. No worries. YES! THAT'S IT! Problem solved.

That was hah. Easy.

"Mimi? You okay?" said Ashton while pulling off at a parking space.

"Yeah sure." i replied while rubbing my forehead. I think i was getting a headache already.

His friends were already there. Everyone looked rather good looking to me. Blondes, brunettes, Asians. Typical looking teenagers. As soon as i stepped out of the car, i noticed someone. Someone, i've seen before this. Hey, isn't he......? Shit, what's his fucking name again!? He was busy skate-boarding with his friends, chattering away. I stared at him - as if he didn't have any clothes on. Omg, that's the guy. The guy whom i thought i'll never meet again. But here i am, a few steps away from him. Of all Ashton's friends, this guy caught my attention.

Yes. I remember his name clearly now. I remembered it all.

If i can just get closer to him..

"Mimi, you're freaking me out." Ashton laughed.

"Shut up!" i hit him playfully on his shoulder.

We were walking toward his group of friends when suddenly, this guy - whom i mentioned earlier on - turned back to notice me. His face expression changed, he stopped talking to his friends, he held his skateboard tightly. We had eye contact for a few minutes. I wanted to look away, but i didn't. He was extremely shocked to find me here too. Right in front of his eyes. This was all unexpected.

"Hey," i said while waving my hand. "Remember me?"

* rinnngg *

" Who the heck set the alarm clock at this time ? " i thought . I woke up and bang the alarm clock so that it will stop snoozing . Jeez . I scratched my head and rubbed my eyes so that i can see what time it is . its 9pm . Its still early anyway . * Grrr * I looked at my tummy , I need dinner , yes , badly .

I went down the stairs , hoping that one of my parents will leave some food in the fridge for me or else i have to turn this house upside down to look for food as you can hardly find something edible in my house . I took my cellphone along with me as i could hear it buzzing when i was asleep . 1 message received .

from Trace :

hey sophie . are you awake yet ? if you are , reply this message . trace here .

to Trace :

hi Trace ! i just woke up . i know , i'm a sleepy pig . anyway , whats up ?

after replying , i look at the fridge . i saw this plate covered with aluminum foil and there's this note saying " Sophie , here's a plate of lasagna for your dinner . your dad just flew to California a few hours ago for business once again . I am outside for my company's dinner and i wont be coming home tonight . When you are done , just put the plate on the table , i'll clean it up when i get home . Love you . "

Right . Business ? i doubt . i took out the plate and heated it up in the oven .

* Ring * Another message received from Trace .

from Trace :

have you eaten your dinner ? you better get your ass up from your bed and go grab you dinner . do you have any ? i can drive you out for dinner , if you dont mind .

to Trace :

nah , its okay . my mum left me a plate of lasagna in the fridge . i have just heated it , waiting for it be heated . how bout you ? have u eaten ?

I went over to my living room and decided to watch some tv while waiting . Where's the remote control ? Gosh . I'm finding up and low for it . Sigh . Its okay . I'll just sit and stone . OUCH ! Ah , there youu are ... you remote control ! Yes , i just sat on a remote control . Gah . I on the television , and browsed through the programmes they are having . Heroes . Yes my favourite .

from Trace :

Yeapp . I just had dinner with my family like 2 hours ago . but still feeling very hungry . So are you enjoying your lasagna ?

to Trace :

i haven't take it out from the oven yet . i'm going to take it out right now . Give me 30 minutes to eat . Thanks . will text you later . bye .

* Ding *
Correct timing . My lasagna is done . I went to the oven and took out the lasagna out and enjoy it . When i was done , obviously i washed my dish . I didnt want to burden my mum with all these small matters as i think she's having major stress right now .

to Trace :

hey , im done . Whats up ?

* Ding Dong *
I quickly ran to the door to open it . It couldnt be mum , no way . I opened the door . Noone's there . But a letter on my doormat . It's from Sonia . Sonia ? Sonia who ? I was thinking who is this girl . Suddenly , a message received which made me stop thinking .

From Trace :

I'm watching Heroes right now . you ?

to Trace :

Oh , me too . Hey , can i ask you something ? Do you know who is Sonia ?

I wanted to open the letter badly to look what it contents . But i didnt have the guts to . I wanted to know who is it , so that i will dare to open it . AH , Trace , hurry . reply me .

From Trace :

Isn't she one of our school cheerleader squat ? The bestest flyer . Why ? What's wrong ?

to Trace :

She just sent a letter to my house . Wait , not exactly . A letter has been dropped by on my doormat and it says is from Sonia .

Why did she sent me a letter for ? Wait , is she the girl that said " soon to be ex girlfriend " at the locker area that day ? Lets hope not . Gosh .

From Trace :

Really ? I have a picture of her . I will take that picture and drive to your house alright ? I can see that you're not fine right now .

To Trace :

erh okay . If im not bothering you . Thanks .

After 15 minutes of staring at the ceiling , thinking bout all the possibilities that this Sonia girl writing a letter to me , thank god , Trace arrived .

" So have you opened the letter yet ? What did it say ? and the picture , here you go " He asked .

" Come in . No , i havent open it . I was waiting for you . oh thanks "

" Well okay . What you waiting for ? Let's open it together . "

I passed him the letter . And i looked at the picture . YES , thats the girl . the girl at the locker area .

" Gosh , that's the girl ! Remember , i told you ? the cheerleader who said " soon to be ex-girlfriend " at the locker area ? "

" oh , so it was her . "

" Why not you open it , Trace ? I cant . "

" Okay Sophie . Chill . I'll just read to you aite .

Dear Sophie , I guess you'll be wondering why am i writing a letter to you . I just want you to give Martin to me . I love him more than you do . He's the most special guy to me , and the most amazing guy that i've ever met . He has always been complaining to me about how you've been treating him in your 1 year relationship . So , that explain why he has been treating you like a stranger recently . He just didnt know how to tell you how he felt because he's scared that you will be mad at him . I know you'll be mad at me after reading this letter . but in this few days , i've been thinking alot bout him , and i cant take him off my mind . I hope you'll give me Martin . I'm SORRY , Sophie .

Tears started to run down my cheeks . Is it true bout what Sonia said ? Martin doesnt like me scolding him ? Really ? Oh my GOD . Why didnt he tell me before ?

" Sophie ? Are you okay ? "

" Noo ... Is it true that Martin has been complaining to Sonia bout me ? "

" Come here , Sophie . I bet its not true , she's just crapping because she's jealous of you "

He pulled me closer to him and i started to leaned against his chest . I continued crying and sobbing . Suddenly , i heard somebody opening my front door and i heard footsteps too . It couldnt be mum right ? She said she wont be coming home . What ? another letter this time ?

" Wait a minute Trace . I heard somebody opening my front door . I am checking it out . "

" Okay , i'm coming along with you . "

So both of us went to check whose out there . We both saw Martin in my house . Yes , he has my house keys , of cause i have his too .

" Hey Sophie . I miss you , so i decided to drop by as a surprise . So how do you like this surprise ? "

Then he looked at me and the guy beside me , Trace .

" And .. TRACE , what the hell are you doing here ?! Sophie , whats wrong ? Why are you crying ? " Martin said .

He came and walked nearer to me . He laid out his hands hoping that i will run to him .

" Stay right there , Martin . " I shouted at him . This time , i cried louder .

" Why , whats wrong ? My god , baby , whats wrong ? You're making me worried . Tell me . " He begged .

" Is it true that you've been complaining to Sonia all bout me ? You didnt like my nags right ? Why couldnt you just tell me ? You make me look like a fool infront of your friends ,dont you know that ? All these days , i have been thinking bout you . You didnt give me a ride to school , i'm fine with it . I gave you time with your new friends . And now , you're treating me like this ? Thats not enough . You just have to treat me like a stranger right ? "

" Who told you all these ? Is it Jason ? I bet it is . I'm going to call him and scold him . Its all fake . Dont believe him ! " He took out his cellphone .

" NO ! Its not him , its Sonia . Dont tell me you dont know whose Sonia . Your super cheerleader . She wants you . Go to her . " I threw the letter at him .

He picked the letter up and read it . He was shocked when he read it .

" Trace , lets go in my room . " I pulled Trace along with me .

" Waiitt Sophie . Can you give me a little time to explain ? "

" Fine . Explain all you want . You have 2 minutes . "

" Okay . Yes , its true Sophie . I didnt like your naggings and such , but i still love you . I dont like that Sonia , she's just a simple friend of mine . We have been together for a year . If i want to break up with you right now , i would have do it a year ago right ? This proves i still love you . And i really do . Trust me , will you ? "

" I dont know ! " I screamt and quickly ran to my room .

I sat down at the corner of my room . Holding my knees near my chest . Trace and Martin is outside my room right now . They just cant stop knocking it .

" Sophie , are you okay ? Trace here . Can you let me in ? "

" GO AWAY ! "

After 5 minutes , i didnt hear anymore knockings . I guess they have went home . So i decided to go to my bed and sleep . I fell into my dreams , slowly .

*************